Darminians Sector

7:34   Ravyr: I played a quasi-lesig forever.. doing everything i could... and interesting you said worthless thats exactly how I view it now.
7:51   Ravyr: It obviously didnt matter. She obviously didnt.
7:57   Ravyr: Now Im just ending her string.
8:14   Ravyr: i'd dissagree - your a powerful player if anything i see you as a way to get to hatter.
8:21   Ravyr: didnt post for a year on the forums...
8:27   Ravyr: so?
8:32   Ravyr: why would she - shes a program.
8:34   Ravyr: To not break rp...
8:41   Ravyr: why would she die?
8:44   Ravyr: thats admirable not useless.
9:12   Ravyr: no - we can figure that out - my biggest concern is it hurts the RP i have with hattah - i like the quasi - merrovingian esque darm so theres little way i can kill her and still be cool with him.
9:17   Ravyr: Good question, kill code? Umm the machines gave you a code to disable her?
9:19   Davinq: Hey Darm.
9:29   Ravyr: nah - the machines wouldn't give me shit.
9:34   Davinq: Wanna help me hit lvl 42 or are you busy?
9:37   Davinq: heya - whats shakin?
9:44   Davinq: give me a few minutes and im game.
9:50   Davinq: Right on.
9:56   Ravyr: I really dont care.... how about I decide to return to the source when you kill me?
0:29   Ravyr: it works i  mean shes an exile death is return to the source a kill code isn't necessary
0:37   Ravyr: perhaps your string is youd kill her?
0:40   madhattah: shes set on this.
0:46   Ravyr: Ya true.
0:56   Ravyr: Perhaps she tells you that? I dunno...
0:58   Ravyr: again it's not that i can't or won't its that im looking for a reason.
1:04   MadHattah: Then I need to unset her.
1:06   Ravyr: it works - but there needs to be something more.
1:38   Ravyr: I dont know, its your character and a story youl lhave forever so whatever sounds good to you.
1:40   MadHattah: im doing my best.
1:46   MadHattah: Thank you.
1:55   MadHattah: More than I can tell you.
2:11   MadHattah: only problem im seeing again is the RP i have with you - but a fix can always be in order.
2:42   Ravyr: alright - how about purging your code from the system - shes succumbed to something - no need for too many details - and bottom line she has to be deleted.
2:44   MadHattah: I'd ask you not to do it.. for now.
2:52   Ravyr: sounds great
3:04   Ravyr: eh give me some time - it's still too simple.
3:17   MadHattah: you two are playing opposites in this - shes begging for an end - and you want the delay.
3:21   Ravyr: thats fine, take your time. .i appreciate this I REALLY do.
3:28   MadHattah: Yes..
3:38   MadHattah: she's upset and not thinking clearly.
3:41   Ravyr: So you just can't do this anymore?
3:50   MadHattah: alright i'm working on it.
3:56   MadHattah: I'm begging you.. wait.
4:01   MadHattah: talk her out of it.
4:04   MadHattah: alright - i'm stalling her.
4:18   Ravyr: live as a quasi lesig who isnt respected by anyone or appreciated.. no I dont think so.
4:41   Ravyr: thats bull i respect you and the string rp we had- was some of the most riveting i've dealth with to date.
4:53   Ravyr: that point about truth being subjective had me actually nodding in rl.
5:04   Ravyr: Thank you I appreciate that.
5:05   Ravyr: why are you cutting yourself so short- your easily fucking pro at this charachter?
5:46   Ravyr: Don't tell me some moron disrespected you and now your all upset over it - cause your better than that hands down.
5:55   Ravyr: I didnt make lesig.. I feel betrayed honestly.. like its all been a waste.. a year down the drain.. but thats fine.
6:15   Ravyr: what 2.0? - the invites haven't even gone out yet.
6:21   Ravyr: they did.
6:30   Ravyr: rare posted on the forums.
6:32   Ravyr: listen - right off the bat - regardless - you don't need to be LESIG to add to the game
6:53   Ravyr: Its alright dear... just help kill me. Ive made my decision. Please.
6:57   Ravyr: and you already do - cutting your charachter short isn't worth it - especially when your constant proof that people are competent beyond this favortism.
7:10   Ravyr: no im arguing until you at least admit its a good cause on one level.
7:28   Ravyr: It's not right that your down over rarebits bullshit - your talking to somene whose been dealing with it for 2 years plus.
7:56   Ravyr: Yes, its a good cause.. but I refuse to play for other people anymore... I am killing her for myself.. and for me to respect her... not for others to.
8:29   Ravyr: Hes doing what he thinks is best for MXO thats good enough for me.
8:40   Ravyr: Im doing what I think is best for ravyr
8:50   Ravyr: let me ask you then? - did he tell you to stop playing ravyr?
9:40   Ravyr: do you think its possibly because he feels you already are aiding the casue so you don't need to be a part of lesig? - i mean you play ravyr as a perfect exile analitical intelligent and captivating aswell as attractive yet un-egotistical - to lose that..
9:48   Ravyr: that hurts the merv side of things and even hattahs posistion.
0:03   Ravyr: i know you don't need to hear negative things but your leaving isn't really the best for anyone.
0:16   Ravyr: Please feel free to tell him that but that isnt enough.. I have no reason why he didnt choose me other then the fact that he didnt feel it was best for mxo.
0:19   Ravyr: if you want ravyr to earn respect or to have it - she needs to do more not cease to exist.
0:35   Ravyr: Like I said, it isnt for others to respect her :)
0:39   Ravyr: its for me to :)
0:52   Ravyr: that or of the 10,000 other people who didn't get chosen you just didn't make the cut in the light of the filtering process.
1:03   Ravyr: you can't say just because you didn't make it your not meant to play this role.
1:18   Ravyr: and if you don't respect her you need to stop and re-evalute her not stop playing her.
1:38   Ravyr: I have made up my mind and hers.
1:44   Ravyr: hell take her in a different direction if you must - but don't just kill her off randomly - everything she's done you know - deep down you know - she deserves better than that.
2:11   Ravyr: she really doesnt.. its actually so fitting for her to die in some mediocre quickly forgotten manner
2:13   Ravyr: Come on - you can't tell me after all the time you invested into her you think a random meaningless last minute idea for death is worth while.
2:32   Ravyr: it fits her life.
2:35   Ravyr: i dissagree- because shes a symbol - it's not what she is but what she has come to mean adn represent.
2:45   Ravyr: nothing obviously.. you see what I mean.
2:58   Ravyr: If she meant or represented something she would have amde it in lesig.
3:00   Ravyr: beyond her programming - shes still a  powerful figure in light of the matrix. Behind every strong man there lies a strong woman - and your hattahs - and in that light people will come to you to get to him.
3:15   Ravyr: no - they aren't going to make pre-existant charachters into lesig figures.
3:24   Ravyr: that would be considered favoritism i could never be a liason.
3:33   Ravyr: She was in the crew...
3:34   Ravyr: even if you'd been selected you'd need a new char.
3:42   Ravyr: for a long time when we were short lesig
4:02   Ravyr: never told anyone a secret,. never even made a friend... barely went ooc just to avoid mistakes that would upset people
4:14   Ravyr: Im done.. shes done now.
4:28   Ravyr: Her purpose has been fulfilled :)
5:03   Ravyr: you can't be - you can't invest that much of yourself into something so flawless and just let it turn to dust over nothing - at least go out with a bang if i'm to kill you. hell betray the merrovingians for a body or something - you can't just go out with
5:07   Ravyr: a flicker.
5:19   madhattah: she's not having it but she's not outright winning either.
5:31   Ravyr: it is so perfect and fitting really.
5:33   MadHattah: winning?
5:42   MadHattah: in her arguement for pro-deletion
6:03   MadHattah: not that you can comment but her lack of lesig selection really has hurt her.
6:30   MadHattah: She feels like her efforts here are not valued.. she's not worthwhile.
6:43   MadHattah: Sometimes I don't need to comment do I?
7:14   Ravyr: you can't let this lesig bullshit take away from you or her - it's not right. You know it - you know your a meaningful chrachter it's why people see you as lesig if they didn't you be like unholy desire just sitting beside him.
7:17   MadHattah: r
7:44   Ravyr: you and the hattah are a pair - even if hes the LESIG one he needs you - and right now he's doing his best to not just beg me to stop you from doing this.
7:48   Ravyr: Darminian, its her time.
8:09   Ravyr: i mean hes putting his status on the line just to keep you around between me and him you think that means she useless or ready to die?
9:11   Ravyr: i guarentee you i can call up every merv i know and they could tell me positive and valuable shit about you and how upset they'd be if you just ceased to exist.
9:38   Ravyr: Thank you so much that makes me feel alot better but it isnt necessary.
9:46   Ravyr: Thank you really.
9:48   Ravyr: you might think your non-selection for LESIG was to help the game - and maybe you'd be right - but thats a maybe you know what im damn sure of? - your leaving or quitting would hurt it.
0:03   Ravyr: it just doesnt change anything... I am playing her for myself for once.
0:20   Ravyr: Your a liason to your people - and you can't just bail because your better then the morons -your better than the lesig ones who bailed and failed.
0:29   Ravyr: you want to play her for yourself? - then do so - actually play her.
0:45   Ravyr: I am and thats finishing her string.
0:49   Ravyr: your using an excuse to deal with how upset you are over this lesig bs - and you don't deserve it.
1:00   Ravyr: it is fitting truly.
1:10   Ravyr: then finish her string - you need to design it's flawlessness and reasoning - your not playing if its just.... hey uh.... can you kill me?
1:20   Ravyr: your better than that and im not just blowing smoke up your ass.
1:26   Ravyr: I am not wasting more time with her...
1:41   Ravyr: whose time are you wasting?
1:49   Ravyr: Everyones.
1:51   Ravyr: the mervs loss of her would hurt the morale.
1:51   Ravyr: no
2:05   Ravyr: no your not - you'd do so much worse to delete her then you would to keep her around.
2:11   Ravyr: and it's bullshit to think otherwise.
3:28   Ravyr: You owe it to her and yourself to end the string in a way tahts meaningful and not just a coppout in light of simplicity. You may think it's fitting but if you could have it the way you wanted it you know it wouldn't be - and in the same light thats how
3:40   Ravyr: even right now - despite what your saying - you know it isn't.
3:56   Ravyr: Can i prove something to you right now?
4:20   Ravyr: No, thank you. I would rather it just  be a quiet affair.
4:34   Ravyr: again - can i prove something to you?
5:30   Ravyr: focus my dear. Your going to have an epiphany if you humor me.
6:36   Sieges: how many advocates are online atm?
7:11   Sieges: Five of us, though I'm not sure what one of us is up to...
7:18   Sieges: fair enough.
7:31   Ravyr: ravyr?
7:34   Ravyr: honestly, I think its very sweet that you would want to give me examples of my worth... theyre not necessary.
7:58   Ravyr: no no - this isn't an example or opinion just fact that a) you still have purpose and value here
8:08   Ravyr: and b) your more than just a player who is a want to be lesig.
8:54   Ravyr: right now - what i was going to do was get you to come through a hardline, mood hurt and sit your ass down in the club, within 5 minutes of calls i can almost guarentee you i'd have every merv on my list down here trying to help you.
9:13   Ravyr: I never did anything for attention darminian.
9:18   Ravyr: I wouldnt start now.
9:33   Ravyr: You think thats the case with just random redpills that follow their liasons - no if anything it shows you have a purpose and more than anything - proves you can be valuable in the light of getting attention to PRE's.
0:03   Ravyr: you wouldn't have to - but the point remains in the altruistic path you have chosen you've come to mean more than you currently see because your blinded by how upset you are.
0:16   Ravyr: I am not upset.
0:20   Ravyr: bullshit.
0:50   Ravyr: your hurt and you know it- you if anything feel betrayed by the LESIG group as you busted your ass proving you were trustworthy and you didn't get it.
0:51   Ravyr: No, it just showed me how meaningless everything I have done is.. you know what. .I dont consider myself better then anyone else.. i just want to end this quickly, quietly..
1:08   Ravyr: I just wanted to be nice and have a story to say good bye to the players before I left.. thats all.
1:13   Ravyr: it's not meaningless - it can't be based simply on what there is around.
2:05   Ravyr: you need to take a break and stop - because right now - your seeing this in the wrong light - if waht you were doing was useless then no one would care - a zionist like myself wouldn't be ranting and raving about how useful you are.
2:09   Ravyr: do you honestly not get that?
2:30   Ravyr: that is very sweet dear.
3:05   Ravyr: i mean heres a string for you to follow - when people can look to you for advice or want to RP with you outside over and with hattah - you play a role and as you've taken this lesig-esque image you owe it to not even yourself but the players to do more
3:10   Ravyr: with it.
3:46   Ravyr: your mad you didn't get lesig? theres people who would kill for a fraction of what you got-  that's not right to just throw it away. I've got a bloody alt i don't touch whom i use just for the illiusion of lesig for events and the like.
4:24   Ravyr: you have so much added credibility with the player base its not even funny - i know you don't want attention but if you did an event or showed up at one or encouraged one to happen - not only would people show up
4:33   Ravyr: I know it is quite selfish of me to play her for myself for once...
4:50   Ravyr: but because you did it - the liason would add to it or at least agree - thats more usefulness than i can even elaborate upon.
5:20   Ravyr: She is a poser and always was.... frankly.
5:24   Ravyr: no.
5:30   Ravyr: she is what lesig's are supposed to be.
5:35   Ravyr: shes talented.
5:36   Ravyr: smart.
5:48   Ravyr: capable, cryptic and for the longest fucking time something this game has been lacking
6:00   Ravyr: shes something that fucking fits in the cannon and matrixy feel this games lacks.
6:08   Ravyr: thank you very much, that is very sweet of you to say. I truly appreciate it.
6:45   Ravyr: if you pull her out your doing something worse to this game then the morons who spam the events. Your not hurting RP - your removing it and thats awful. Cause people here would kill for meaningful RP and if its from a player its fair and unbiased its sinc
7:21   Ravyr: sincere and real - and it makes you better than an LET for the love of god or neo don't do this ravyr - at least for me even - cause i wasn't nearly ready to stop RPing with you - you still owe me a long logn chat about strings that im dieing for.
7:45   Ravyr: and i still want more meetings between hattah myself and you where i can pretend your looks do nothing and we can grin over the unspoken truths around us.
8:05   Ravyr: the most fulfilling and entertaining RP i've had in god knows how long came from our chat about strings and the meeting in the club.
8:23   Ravyr: you impacted my play in a way that so many LESIG and even LET fail and suck at.
8:30   Ravyr: and in that light i can't let you just do this.
8:40   Ravyr: that is very nice and it does hurt me to not be able to. Unfortunately death isnt always scripted to end happily or leave others fulfilled
9:13   Ravyr: maybe not - but when it's her and you - and this much work has gone into it - it needs to be something more than bang shes gone. And you want to know why?
9:28   Ravyr: because it's going to cause an upraor - hattah will have to be angry - and the mervs will be pissed they lost a liason.
9:48   Ravyr: people are going to want to hunt me down (which is more than appealing in my eyes) and not know why i got to kill  a liason.
0:08   Ravyr: and it doesn't matter that your not one - because people believe you are.
0:16   Ravyr: and your more than just a player - especially now.
0:56   Ravyr: People and other lesigs know that I am a sham.
1:07   Ravyr: It doesnt matter.. I know she is now too.
1:16   Ravyr: Its been confirmed.
1:56   Ravyr: no they don't all know - and regardless your still hattahs companion and side even if your not lesig you play a lesig role.
5:40   Saaint: Evening.
7:03   Saaint: howdy this is myu firist day here its pretty cool lol
7:36   Saaint: welcome to the matrix online - its a very cool game and if you stick around long enough you'll be able to see the big live event thats happening next week.
8:04   Ravyr: Let me ask you this - what are you going to do 'when' shes deleted?
8:39   Ravyr: nothing.
8:48   MadHattah: i'm going to PM you on the boards it will be a link to a site where the log is posted. were still at it - but she doesn't want to budge.
8:55   Ravyr: and thats valuable to the game and story?
9:01   MadHattah: I'm trying too..
9:09   MadHattah: Thank you.. for your help.
9:22   MadHattah: I think if she goes.. I will as well.
0:42   MadHattah: ..... does that mean im killing both of you?
0:48   Ravyr: let me show you something.
0:51   Ravyr: MadHattah whispers>I think if she goes.. I will as well.
0:55   MadHattah: No..
1:03   MadHattah: And I'm asking you.. don't kill her.
1:05   Ravyr: I know.. I told him if he quits I will stop speaking to him irl.
1:09   Ravyr: now that is fucked up. Your leaving will cause another loss of merrovingian leadership.
1:32   Ravyr: No, he wont leave if he cares about me irl.
1:38   Ravyr: or ever talking to me again.
1:45   MadHattah: i don't intend to but right now im not saying no so i can at least continue the talk - if i say no outright she might look for someone else and she seems like im forcing her to think.
2:05   MadHattah: Thank you.
2:18   Ravyr: or maybe - if you cared about him irl - you wouldn't leave - is the way he's seeing it. Maybe playing that role without you at his side makes that role so much more sour he wants to be selfish and delete hattah too.
5:57   Ravyr: Cause for a little more thought on the subject perhaps?
9:20   Ravyr: i think you need to take a break from her for a while but not delete her - getting rid of her costs way more than is right and above all else your too good of a pair with hattah to give that up.
0:27   MadHattah: interesting turn of events.
0:32   MadHattah: the final line i sent to her was:
0:35   MadHattah: whisper to Ravyr>i think you need to take a break from her for a while but not delete her - getting rid of her costs way more than is right and above all else your too good of a pair with hattah to give that up.
0:47   MadHattah: and now shes offline.
0:58   MadHattah: she /suicided and logged.
1:08   MadHattah: Thank you my friend.
1:08   MadHattah: .....
1:16   MadHattah: Farewell.
1:20   MadHattah: hold on
1:31   MadHattah: so your gone too then?
2:11   MadHattah: Well G fucking G - there goes the only two people whose RP was as enjoyable as it was challenging.
2:21   MadHattah: i'm still sending you the log asshattah.